I just passed my two-year work anniversary. Two years of night shift, shitty handover reports from nurses that just took over a shift. Two years of patients that love us, and some that hate us. Two years of smiling, helping, and doing the best I can for the people I take care of. I appreciate everything I have learned and experienced here, but it just might be time to mosey on down the road.
I realized last week that the supervisors here (of which I was supposed to be one, but got offered a lower promotion along with 5 other people) refuse to be on the same page with one another. They all have their own rules for what we’re supposed to be doing, but they rarely do the job themselves. I adore our supervisors as people, but as leaders they all leave something to be desired. That something is accountablity.
They’re all so worried about upsetting anyone that might be doing something incorrectly, the never correct anyone. If we as training officers try to correct a behavior, we don’t have anyone else backing us up. None of the trainers have been trained. We all have our own styles of doing things, and even though we’re supposed to be working as a team, we don’t.
I have to admit that I’m probably a bit of a hard ass when it comes to training. My trainer was, and it made me a better clinician and I thank him for it. The people we have now, in our most recent class of newbies from the beginning of the year are lazy and arrogant. If a correction is made, they go from person to person asking the question until they get an answer they like. I don’t appreciate how I’m the second most senior person here, and the most senior EMT, and no one gives a flying fuck what I say.
I’m not always right. I love to learn things, and better ways to do things. What I don’t do is lie to people and tell them what they want to hear. I won’t be a jackass about it, I’ll pass on information in a digestible manner, but I won’t put up with people half-assing their job.
I’ve got some feelers out, I’ve put in applications and turned in my resume in several places. Let’s hope something new comes down the road and I can be somewhere that I feel appreciated by more than one person. I wouldn’t trade my experience here for anything, but what I would do differently is be a bigger pain in the ass, I wouldn’t give up until I got my way with a lot of things that have not happened. This is the biggest lesson I’m taking from here.